No regrets.
I've told that to myself a hundred times this whole week. There was this opportunity and I will try. So whatever the outcome, I won't have any regrets.
But I do. I do.
The biggest regret comes from knowing that you tried. That you went throught it even though all you've got is your almost empty cracked bottle of second hand self confidence. And knowing you could've done better. But realizing you can't do anything about it, anyway.
I hate it when that happens. But it always happens. You never get what you want. Never. Most of the time, you're stuck at what you already have. And sometimes, you just have to make the best out of it.
As a consolation, maybe it wasn't exactly a regret, but a lesson. Somehow, it teaches you something. You have to learn from it or it's nothing but a waste of time.
But it wasn't. It was not a waste of time at all.
So what to do now? I might need some time refilling that bottle of second hand confidence. :(
