The World Taking a Wrong Turn

A zig zag. A road bump. Then crash.

That's how it is in real life. Shattered. Trashed. Broken. Everything is easily destroyed because of one wrong turn. All the length you've travel to seems worthless. And you're left in the middle of the road, looking as confused as you ever will.

Confused. That's exactly how I felt right now. You know, I've never stumbled upon an ever so right word in my life as the word CONFUSED.

I hate looking at my life and realizing I don't really know anything. Like was it really my life or am I looking at somebody else's life? Someone I don't know.

You know, when you had your downward spiral you became obsessed not to repeat it again. But then that obsession is a little too strong that you became unaware of other downward spirals that could possibly happen. And then that downward spiral will grow with the negative thoughts inside your head, worsen by the fear of what the world and the universe could do to you.

I've had my downward spirals. Many times. Times when you thought everything is going great, when it so seemed that life is falling into place. You know, as they say, things are too good to be true. That's when it hit you. That's when you fall into the trap where you can never get back. You lose track of your  journey. You see yourself looking around an unfamiliar hell. Somewhere you've never been. Then you start to see yourself in a way you've never seen yourself before.

You'll realize a lot of things. The demons inside you will definitely find it amusing. But that's not the worse. Sometimes, you let those demons to control you just so they'll stop pestering you. But never would they stop ones you let them. They will never be gone.

Confused as it may seem, you have to hop back in your car. Get on the track. But no, do not drive back. There is no time in going back in life. You just have to find a way where you can get on the right track again. Sometimes, it's just a matter of which way to turn.

-S

Seven Minutes in Heaven

I feel so weird right now. It seems like I was so affected by what
happened in a fictional world.

Okay. That's right. I suddenly felt so gloomy and sad right after I
finished reading the last book in The Lying Game series.

I think the last book, Seven Minutes in Heaven, is the best book in
the series. It was one with the conclusion though.

It's just that, I don't understand why I feel like this. Was it just
because of how it ended? Of how Sutton and Emma never get to meet each
other? Or was it the fact that the series finally ends?

I read the first book back in June 2012. And for more than a year, I
followed the series. It was a really great thing about Sara Shepard.
Her books has this compelling power. Like when I started The Lying
Game, I could wait to read Never Have I Ever, and then Two Truths And
a Lie, then Hide and Seek, then Cross My Heart and Hope to Die. And I
was surprised that she ended the series with the 6th book, Seven
Minutes in Heaven.

I already figured out the killer since book 1. That's why everytime
Ethan would come up, I was always looking for clues.

But I guess, I had to live with the fact that Sutton and Emma's story
ends in Book 6. That there's no book 7 coming.

But one day, I'm going to read all the books in the series again. I'm
going to devulge in the mystery again. I'm going through the Mercer's
life again. And though Sutton is just a fictional character, I'll
always remember her...like what she said at the end of the series.


-S-

In The End, Everything Matters

"Don't worry, it doesn't matter..."

It's already been a phrase we often hear. We say it when we encounter
something small. But... doesn't it really matter?

I think it does. Every little thing does matter. Every little thing
has a reason. It links one thing to another.

But how does it matter?

Life is about the journey, as they say it. Everything along the
journey helps you reach your destination. That is how it matters.

In the end, even the smallest, single word will have its deepest
meaning. In the end, everything that you thought is worthless, will
matter... Sometimes, it's all about your perspective.